Fat Chance

So I looked up the resturant and checked out it’s menu. They even had a link on the website for dinner options under 500 calories. I love the internet.

I’m going into this thing prepared!

Okay - back from camping and a weekend full of awful food choices… I’m going to do great this week!

Breakfast: protien shake

Snack: 1/2 cup red grapes

Lunch: turkey and chipotle wrap

Snack: small apple

Dinner: gnocci, shimp with garlic and lemon, and a small salad with fat free ranch dressing (that the boyfriend helped me make - it was great!)

Waking up this morning was like waking up from a long night of drinking. I was only vaguely aware that, in my blind fit of rage and anger, I had done something I ought to be embarrassed about. I looked through my tumblr like one might look through a cell phone, searching for incriminating evidence. I found yesterday’s post. I have retracted said post. Looking over it, it was just too bitchy. That’s not what I want this blog to be about. Don’t get me wrong, there will be times when I will probably need my spirits buoyed – but yesterday’s post was just a little too much.

Thank you to gettinfit, smaller-n-smaller, kittystardust, and effthisdiet for all of your support and advice.

gettinfit – Being an adult is hard! Sometimes I think I have it all figured out, other times, like yesterday, I realize that I’m still just 23 and trying to figure it all out. I still have a lot to learn. And my weekend are better – much less to do. And some of my weekdays can be nice too – yesterday was just the straw that broke the camel’s back, you know?

smaller-n-smaller – Ew… stress… I need to learn some distressing techniques. I think they would be handy for all of us here on tumblr to learn. Hell, for everyone to learn! You know, it’s funny – I actually haven’t told BF about my tumblr yet. I don’t know why. I know that he would support it 100%. I guess it’s been kind of nice to have something all to myself for a little bit. But you’re right, I should share. If it’s important to me, then it’s important to him too. I think it’s fantastic, by the way, that you and your husband are on tumblr together. What a great support structure you have, you lucky, lucky girl!

kittystardust – I think I could try to get him to work out with me, but the chances are slim. It also gets complicated with the dog. I have to walk the dog, because he really needs to get some of that puppy energy out, but the boyfriend thinks walking is boring and “inefficient.” We could ride our bikes with the dog – but I don’t have the extra cash at the moment to get a bike… I know that all sounds like a lot of excuses… You’re right, though. I should try and get him to come with me – it could be nice.

effthisdiet – Thanks for the kind words and support. You’re totally right. Writing it down and getting it out into the universe is really the best therapy for any problem, but it doesn’t fix it 100%… but it does feel so nice. I am feeling so much better now, although slightly embarrassed by the overall awful-ness of my post…

I don’t know about you all, but I hate Mondays. I didn’t used to – but the older I get and the more responsibilities I have, the more I realize that I am just not a Monday sort of person. I don’t feel energized or excited for the new week. I wake up Monday morning attempting to cling to the last vestiges of my weekend. Like a very wise cat once said, nothing good ever happens on a Monday.

Like most Mondays, I woke up today feeling awful. My mood was not improved by the fact that it was still dark outside when I got up (seriously, don’t you hate that?), or the fact that I gained two pounds over the weekend. Son of a bitch.

I went camping this weekend with the boyfriend and some friends of ours. It was great, and I had a blast. I also was not so careful about what I ate. A lot of that had to do with the company that I was in. When it’s just me, or me and the boyfriend, I’m great. I stick to a healthy lifestyle and generally make good food choices (at least, I have been since I started this blog). When I am out with other people, though, things get dicey. There is always someone who notices that you’re not eating as much as you normally would, or that you ordered a salad instead of a burger. And they always have to point it out.

“What, are you on a diet or something?” they snort.
“Yeah, I am actually,” you reply, barely above a whisper.
“Oh, you’re not fat. You’re fine!” they say, playing the role of the dutiful friend who thinks that’s all you need to hear.

Eventually, you get tired of the attention that choosing healthy food brings to you, and you just suck it up and get an ice cream cone with everyone else. Don’t get me wrong, I love my friends, I just wish they understood. I’m not doing this for attention. I’m not doing this so you’ll tell me I’m pretty just the way I am. I’m doing this for me. I’m doing this to be healthy. So, could you please all just shut up and let me order my salad – dressing on the side?

Seriously, how do you all deal with belligerent friends? Coworkers? Significant others?

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Breakfast: protein sake

Snack: rice cake with 1 tbs of reduced fat peanut butter

Lunch: rice and bean burrito from Trader Joe’s

Snack: pineapple and orange smoothie

Dinner: homemade pizza, made with fat-free cheese, turkey pepperoni, lots of veggies and whole wheat crust (also from Trader Joe’s)

Getting Fit and Fab: I’m going to do better.

Here’s the response I sent to her…

Okay, here’s the rest of what I was going to say.

I know just what you mean. You look at yourself in the mirror and you go “I hate this person, why did I do this to myself?” You vow to do better. To make yourself a better person. Then you go straight to the fridge. Why? Because you’re upset/sad/bored/whatever. It’s how you deal with it. You immediately go from “I have to change this” to “I’m already this far gone, what does it even matter anymore?”

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about this cycle, and the way I use food. Like you, I hate to admit it, but I think I use food emotionally. It feels almost icky to say – but it’s true. I would go as far as to say I’m kind of addicted to it. Which scares me. I start to feel like a closet alcoholic who keeps their stash hidden in nightstands or desk drawers. As long as no one sees it, then no one will know. Well, people might not see me eating, but they certainly see the result. It’s something I can’t hide from anymore. It’s embarrassing and I hate myself for it.

I think that’s why I joined tumblr. I knew that if I was left to my own devices that I would just keep going down the same, dismal path. Tumblr was my way to do something better. I’ve only been doing it for a week so far, but I can already tell a difference in the way I am approaching my life. Because I’m not on a diet anymore – I’m in a whole new lifestyle. It really is an addict mentality. I have to go cold turkey. Detox myself. I can’t ever go back to candy bars and frozen pizza, because I know I’ll slip again. Tumblr is kind of like my 12-step program. I hope it can be that way for you too.

Okay, so maybe I’ve gone completely off the deep end, and am now babbling, but it sure felt good to get this out there. I might even post this on my blog – it could be really therapeutic. I hope at least some of this made sense to you. I feel like you can relate. And know if you need anything (pep-talk, sounding board, Yahoo checkers opponent) I’m here. And so is all of the thinspo community.

I just saw all your responses to my Weigh-In Wednesday post… You guys all rock so hard it’s not even funny. If it weren’t for all of your support, I would never have even gotten to those first three pounds. So, thank you.

And I also want to say thank you to everyone who has followed me! For once there are just too many of you all to write individually (I work during the day, you know? Like what I’m doing right now… yeah… working…). I have followed all of you back, and am enjoying all of your blogs.

Damnit, I love this online community. You all are going to turn me into a Tumblr junkie.

Breakfast: strawberry and blueberry smoothie

Snack: sliced tomato

Lunch: salad with a few strips of left-over steak and homemade fat free ranch dressing (by homemade, I mean I used a packet from the store…)

Snack: zucchini bread and a slice of watermelon

Dinner: baked chicken parmesan (Giada’s recipe from the Food Network - it was AMAZING, and healthy) and spaghetti squash.

Starting Weight: 192

Current Weight: 189

Total Weight Loss: 3

Woo hoo! I’ve lost three pounds in the last week. I’m only four pounds away from my first goal weight. I set that as my first goal weight because it’s the weight that I always seem to plateau at. But this time I will power through it, yeah!

Breakfast: Slim Fast Strawberry Shake

Snack: non-fat plain yogurt (sweetened with agave nectar - and you thought it was only for making margaritas!) starberries, blueberries, and granola

Lunch: 3 Trader Joe’s multigrain flatbread crackers with turkey, fat-free cream cheese, and tomatoes

Snack: way too many pita chips and hummus

Dinner: 4 oz tri-tip steak, 1 cup deliciously garlic broccoli, 1 cup chopped watermelon

Snack: homemade zucchini bread

I don’t know how some of you go just eating an apple for breakfast or lunch or dinner. I used to do that in college - and subsequently gained weight. I’ve come to the conclusion that my body needs food. And it likes snacks. So, I’m going to give it what it wants in the hopes that it will give me what I want. New game-plan: evenly weighted snacks and meals throughout the day = happy body and more weight loss. Let’s hope.

craving-beautiful:

thenewmeisskinny:

skinnydaydreams:

addictivemisery:

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I live in Virginia (USA). Originally from California, but I went to college out here and loved it so much that I stayed.

Breakfast: Strawberry Slim Fast shake, banana

Lunch: turkey burger patty, baby carrots, strawberry yogurt, and granola

Snack: vegetable egg role

Dinner: baked potato with fat free sour cream and green onions, 4 oz lean beef

Snack: homemade zucchini bread

Which means I’m cooking for just myself… I always get in trouble this way. BUT NOT TONIGHT!

I’m thinking baked potato. Potatoes are good for you, right?

I just want to say thank you to everyone who has followed me and written kind messages. I would really like to thank you all personally, and have been trying to. If I haven’t gotten to you – I’m sorry.

Anyway, you all really give me the push I need to make it through the day. As all of you know, it is so easy to just mindlessly let something slip. You’re going about your normal day and suddenly you realize that you ate leftover birthday cake from the break room for lunch. But tumblr is really keeping my weight-loss goals at the forefront of my mind. I know it’s been only a few days since I started this thing, but I can already tell it’s having a much bigger impact than anything else I’ve tried so far.

And I know this is, like, my third “thank you” post – but I really mean it. All of you guys rock. This time around I am just as excited about the journey as I am about the destination – and that is all thanks to you.

All of you awesome tumblr-folk out there are making it impossible for me to do any work at work today… Just sayin’… :)

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helloskinnybitch:

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 Fuck yes!

Why/how did you begin your journey in health and fitness?
I started to dabble in health and fitness after my sophomore year of college, but I don’t think I’ve ever been as serious about it as I am now. To be completely honest: I started just to lose weight. I’m tired of looking at my closet at realizing that there is only a small handful of things that fit me anymore. But after reading a lot of the blogs on here, I’ve definitely started to get a better appreciation for the health part of this all. Hell, I want to be around a long time – I should try to be healthy and take care of myself.

What are your goals?
To lose weight and to kick-start a healthy lifestyle that I hope to keep for years to come. I don’t want to end up a health nut, but it would be nice to stay healthy, you know?

What is your goal weight (if you have one)?
By the end of this thing I will be 145 lbs. That seems really realistic to me. Ideally I’d like to get to 135, but I would be over the moon if I got to 145.

What are your plans once you get to your goal weight?
I am going to have to agree with just about every girl on tumblr… go shopping. I will finally be able to wear some of the clothes that I eye on the racks but was never able to quite pull off. I would also like to buy my very first two piece swimsuit – but that could still just be a pipe-dream. I don’t know.

What is one thing you have tried that you thought you would HATE, but loved?
Hummus. I went through my entire college career avoiding it because it looked weird (which is so not like me because the only two foods in the world I hate are asparagus and canned tuna – everything else I like). Now I make a darn good herb hummus.

What is one thing you tried that you did hate and why?
Running. I’m just not a runner. To be fair: I have never been much of an exercise nut. But I just despise running.

What is your favorite exercise?
Again, not really an exercise sort of person. I do walk every day, though. I used to like it a lot more before I moved to the south (where it’s humid as hell). I remember I used to love to roller-blade. Maybe I’ll take that up again…

Do you have a workout buddy?
My dog, Rusty. My neighbor walks her dogs with us sometimes. But it’s just been too darn hot this summer for the both of us. Seriously – the humidity is so bad it makes it hard to breathe. Maybe if I grew up down here it would be different.

What is one of your favorite meals you have come across?
Salad. Plain and simple. I love a good salad bar at a restaurant. Makes me really, really happy. Oh, and spaghetti squash. A serious god-send.

What is one of the worst meals you have come across?
Like I said before, I love all food - you don’t get to be overweight by being a picky eater. But I do hate asparagus and canned tuna. So, I imagine some kind of meal made with the two of those things would be a horrible meal for me. Other than that, it’s all good.

Do you use myplate or something like it? How are you liking it?
I use SparkPeople, although probably not as much as I should. I just use it to keep tabs on the calories in my food – but it has a ton of other features that I could be taking advantage of.

Why did you decide to blog about your journey?
I’ve been trying to lose weight for about four years now. Once I lost ten pounds then stopped. Another time I lost twenty pounds and then plateaued and just kind of gave up. Blogging will keep me accountable, and keep me focused. There are people out there rooting for me now – and that’s huge. I’ve never had that before. It’s kind of an amazing feeling – like I need to tell any of you though.

What are some of your workout tunes?
I don’t usually listen to music while I walk. In my neighborhood you’re lucky if you can get a quarter of a mile before someone stops to talk to you. In college I listened to a lot of Katy Perry, though. I know… guilty pleasure…

Who are your favorite health/fitness bloggers (doesn’t have to be tumblr)?
Can I just put down everyone? Here are some of the folks I stalk, er, follow on a regular (read: hourly)basis: smaller-n-smaller, 100lbsplease, shrink-wrap, effthisdiet, lifeiloveyou, drlovehandles.

Tell me a few things not related about you.
• I participated in my first NaNoWriMo last November and I WON! (want to be NaNoWriMo buddies? Username: leightonscott)
• I run a movie review website with my best friend: http://www.themovietalkers.com/
• I am a prolific personal blogger: http://www.stillrockandrolltome.blogspot.com
• I have shaken George Clooney’s hand (yes, it was as wonderful as I always imagined it being…)

Breakfast: soy chorizo and egg beaters, a banana

Lunch: turkey, fat free cheese, lettuce, tomato, dijon mustard on a whole wheat pita

Snack: homemade pasta salad

Dinner: homemade General Tso’s chicken, rice, and veggie eggroll

Snack: homemade zucchini bread (completely fat free!)

Overall, much better than the the other day. I still think it could have been better, though. Next time: little more fruits and veggies, little less bread.

To all of the new followers, you guys are awesome - and so are your blogs! I seriously feel inspired.